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Created: 2025-07-24 10:40:43 UTC

im genuinely mentally ill and tired of pretending im not to make other people feel better

i would smoke a lot of weed and take adhd meds and have a history of drug abuse and so on because when i'm fully sober like i am now then existence feels unbearable

i'm sorry if that upsets you, but that is how i feel and i can't change how i naturally feel - i can do drugs to suppress and sedate myself to make others feel more comfortable but the sober me fucking hates this place

it's not nihilism - it is disgust, exhaustion

it's the effect of very heightened sensitivity in a world full of shit

it's not all love when love is literally just a fucking buzzword, nobody really knows how to love anyone, let alone themselves

and the world is not amazing when its fucking run by pedophiles and you people just want to pretend it doesnt happen because you're cowards

the world is plagued by cancer because guess what - that mass majority of people allow it be and continue to allow to happen

im so fucking sick of feeling this way and nobody understands it - i cant just "turn it off" i can only turn it off by drugging myself

call me schizophrenic or invalidate me or whatever you want i dont really give a shit i dont need your approval


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