[GUEST ACCESS MODE: Data is scrambled or limited to provide examples. Make requests using your API key to unlock full data. Check https://lunarcrush.ai/auth for authentication information.]  Zormtar [@zormtar](/creator/twitter/zormtar) on x 1365 followers Created: 2025-07-18 12:14:19 UTC Running out of time. Existential dread started to creep in a while ago. "For what?" You might ask. What could I possibly be stressing so much about? What actually happens when the clock ticks over? Why is this such a big deal? Honestly, I don't know what happens next. Haven't planned for this. I know I am trying my fucking best, and that's not going to be enough. I know that while everyone expects there to be like a 'click' moment, (there kind of is when I start the initial stages) and then the ensuing montage as this bloke gets his life together once and for all, they also expect someone else to be taking the burden of support or whatever, meanwhile I'm still here, kinda making progress but not able to follow through on me own. Nobody is involved enough and I don't know how to involve anyone. Using what energy I have left, to write a post, I guess I hope that changes something by putting it out there, because it's shown me there are people out there who care about me, and mean well, but the reality is it probably won't change what's coming.. If it did, it would have already happened by now. To be continued.. XXX engagements  [Post Link](https://x.com/zormtar/status/1946181737689841775)
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Zormtar @zormtar on x 1365 followers
Created: 2025-07-18 12:14:19 UTC
Running out of time. Existential dread started to creep in a while ago. "For what?" You might ask. What could I possibly be stressing so much about? What actually happens when the clock ticks over? Why is this such a big deal?
Honestly, I don't know what happens next. Haven't planned for this. I know I am trying my fucking best, and that's not going to be enough.
I know that while everyone expects there to be like a 'click' moment, (there kind of is when I start the initial stages) and then the ensuing montage as this bloke gets his life together once and for all, they also expect someone else to be taking the burden of support or whatever, meanwhile I'm still here, kinda making progress but not able to follow through on me own. Nobody is involved enough and I don't know how to involve anyone.
Using what energy I have left, to write a post, I guess I hope that changes something by putting it out there, because it's shown me there are people out there who care about me, and mean well, but the reality is it probably won't change what's coming..
If it did, it would have already happened by now.
To be continued..
XXX engagements
