[GUEST ACCESS MODE: Data is scrambled or limited to provide examples. Make requests using your API key to unlock full data. Check https://lunarcrush.ai/auth for authentication information.]  Brianna Wu [@BriannaWu](/creator/twitter/BriannaWu) on x 170.9K followers Created: 2025-07-18 11:54:38 UTC There are some trans women who are into women. But that’s not how I experienced gender dysphoria. And I don’t think we experience attraction to men the way gay men do either. When I was a teenager, I started getting terrifying crushes on the boys in my class. The idea of being in a relationship, being loved by them - it felt so right. But I was ashamed and guilty about how badly I wanted those things. I couldn’t make any sense of my feelings, because I desperately wanted to be close to the girls in my class too. I’ve dated just one girl seriously, and it was my high school sweetheart. But looking back, it really was more of a best friendship than anything else. I was so emotionally starved, and I had just gone through elementary and junior high without a single friend. That relationship was so close, so intense, that I convinced myself it was sexual attraction, because I couldn’t possibly be gay. But even when we broke up in college, I found myself stuck in a loop. Extremely close relationships with women, but I was offended and grossed out by the idea of dating them. Around the same time, I went straight into gayworld. But I couldn’t make sense of my feelings there either. The gay boys wanted to fuck everything in sight, and that just wasn’t how I experienced attraction to men. For me, it was so much more subtle. So I was stuck. I craved closeness with women, but the idea of more repelled me. I had feelings toward men I didn’t understand, but when gay men tried to have sex with me, it felt aggressive and objectifying, and I would just avoid it. When I finally got on HRT, that’s when everything clicked. And hand to God, as best as I can tell, what I feel is closer to what c1s women feel than anything else. Yes, I wanted men, but in a romantic sense. Yes, I feel sexual attraction, but there has to be an emotional connection to act on it. And what I felt toward women was just normal female desire for closeness and friendship. It’s not attraction. It’s camaraderie. This is another reason I believe whatever is wrong with people like me has a biological basis. Because HRT fixes it so well. It’s like being blind your whole life, and then getting a pair of glasses, but for all of your emotions. XXXXXX engagements  **Related Topics** [women](/topic/women) [Post Link](https://x.com/BriannaWu/status/1946176785294455293)
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Brianna Wu @BriannaWu on x 170.9K followers
Created: 2025-07-18 11:54:38 UTC
There are some trans women who are into women. But that’s not how I experienced gender dysphoria. And I don’t think we experience attraction to men the way gay men do either.
When I was a teenager, I started getting terrifying crushes on the boys in my class. The idea of being in a relationship, being loved by them - it felt so right. But I was ashamed and guilty about how badly I wanted those things. I couldn’t make any sense of my feelings, because I desperately wanted to be close to the girls in my class too.
I’ve dated just one girl seriously, and it was my high school sweetheart. But looking back, it really was more of a best friendship than anything else. I was so emotionally starved, and I had just gone through elementary and junior high without a single friend. That relationship was so close, so intense, that I convinced myself it was sexual attraction, because I couldn’t possibly be gay.
But even when we broke up in college, I found myself stuck in a loop. Extremely close relationships with women, but I was offended and grossed out by the idea of dating them.
Around the same time, I went straight into gayworld. But I couldn’t make sense of my feelings there either. The gay boys wanted to fuck everything in sight, and that just wasn’t how I experienced attraction to men. For me, it was so much more subtle.
So I was stuck. I craved closeness with women, but the idea of more repelled me. I had feelings toward men I didn’t understand, but when gay men tried to have sex with me, it felt aggressive and objectifying, and I would just avoid it.
When I finally got on HRT, that’s when everything clicked. And hand to God, as best as I can tell, what I feel is closer to what c1s women feel than anything else. Yes, I wanted men, but in a romantic sense. Yes, I feel sexual attraction, but there has to be an emotional connection to act on it.
And what I felt toward women was just normal female desire for closeness and friendship. It’s not attraction. It’s camaraderie.
This is another reason I believe whatever is wrong with people like me has a biological basis. Because HRT fixes it so well. It’s like being blind your whole life, and then getting a pair of glasses, but for all of your emotions.
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