# ![@zarahemla0 Avatar](https://lunarcrush.com/gi/w:26/cr:tiktok::7566303794579162126.png) @zarahemla0 Zarahemla

Zarahemla posts on TikTok about exmo, share, hope, heart the most. They currently have [-----] followers and [---] posts still getting attention that total [-----] engagements in the last [--] hours.

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### Social Influence

**Social category influence**
[exchanges](/list/exchanges) 

**Social topic influence**
[exmo](/topic/exmo) #62, [share](/topic/share), [hope](/topic/hope), [heart](/topic/heart), [deep](/topic/deep), [grief](/topic/grief), [complex](/topic/complex), [this is](/topic/this-is), [process](/topic/process), [heal](/topic/heal)

**Top accounts mentioned or mentioned by**
[@ivette](/creator/undefined) [@missteak](/creator/undefined) [@bernadette](/creator/undefined) [@madmnc](/creator/undefined) [@shannacalhoun5](/creator/undefined) [@kmanuel1962gmail](/creator/undefined) [@silenthorse10376](/creator/undefined) [@gail](/creator/undefined) [@jodi](/creator/undefined) [@user1601770819852](/creator/undefined) [@not](/creator/undefined) [@rhea](/creator/undefined) [@sarah](/creator/undefined) [@cynthiaswann231](/creator/undefined) [@kmhoth](/creator/undefined) [@melissa](/creator/undefined) [@alwayslooking](/creator/undefined) [@iv](/creator/undefined) [@zarahemla](/creator/undefined) [@worktillhandsbleed](/creator/undefined)
### Top Social Posts
Top posts by engagements in the last [--] hours

"✨ Hello Im Zarah and this is my story. ✨ I was a lifelong Mormon its woven into my heritage my family roots and the early chapters of my life. But Im no longer practicing and over the years Ive walked a quiet deeply personal journey of unlearning rediscovering healing and growing. Im starting this channel to share that journey not from a place of anger but from a place of peace. A place of: 🌿 Reclaiming identity 🌿 Finding joy beyond fear 🌿 Healing from high-demand beliefs 🌿 Strengthening intuition and self-trust 🌿 Learning to build a life aligned with my values 🌿 Holding space for"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7579681622597946655)  2025-12-03T17:16Z [--] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety the depression the CPTSD the conversion disorder the OCPDthese may never fully leave me. They are part of the landscape I walk through every day. But even in the heaviness I still hold hope. Hope that things can get better. Hope that healing isnt a destination but a direction. Hope that I can build a life that feels gentle steady and fully my own. If youre carrying something too I see you. We can keep moving toward the light together. 💛 #exmo #exmormon #exmormons #religiousrecovery #cptsd #anxietyawareness #depressionawareness #mentalhealthjourney #healingjourney #complexptsd"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7580461256688045342)  2025-12-05T19:41Z [--] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSD #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #ChildhoodTrauma #SurvivorStory #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #WritingToHeal"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7582769565143289119)  2025-12-12T00:58Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSD #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #ChildhoodTrauma #SurvivorStory #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #WritingToHeal"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7583148345791728926)  2025-12-13T01:28Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7584140262675336479)  2025-12-15T17:38Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"There is life after Mormonism. There is community joy and miracles. There is magic. It has always been there and will always be there. When you are ready to step into the darkness you get to experience the dawn. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7584146495679647007)  2025-12-15T18:02Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7584601657095392543)  2025-12-16T23:28Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7585663170564410654)  2025-12-19T20:07Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586408554102410526)  2025-12-21T20:20Z [--] followers, 37.3K engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586410758590762271)  2025-12-21T20:28Z [----] followers, 11.2K engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586413557680508191)  2025-12-21T20:39Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586414918669290782)  2025-12-21T20:44Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Silenthorse10376 This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586733641254980894)  2025-12-22T17:21Z [--] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Gail Radcliff Optics are everything to a Mormon Narcissist. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586739180584160542)  2025-12-22T17:43Z [----] followers, 10.4K engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals THE COPS WERE CALLED AT LEAST [--] TIMES THE COPS WERE CALLED"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587156449009077534)  2025-12-23T20:42Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals THE PUFFY EYE THE PUFFY EYE"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587167380296453407)  2025-12-23T21:24Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals MAMA ZARAH: POTTY TRAINING MAMA ZARAH: POTTY TRAINING"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587169718625209630)  2025-12-23T21:33Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Zarah the Bully Zarah the Bully"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587169722353995039)  2025-12-23T21:33Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Christmas: Part [--] Christmas: Part 2"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587188848782871839)  2025-12-23T22:47Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Family news. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587852057198054686)  2025-12-25T17:41Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Update on my brother. Yesterday my brother was in a car accident on a moped while in Hawaii on vacation with my family. He sustained injuries to his facial bones skull and vertebrae but they are fine. He had surgery on his leg that was severely damaged in the accident. He should be up and about soon. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587947021898730782)  2025-12-25T23:50Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"When Christmas is less about stress and more about connection. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Christmas Hit Differently This Year Christmas Hit Differently This Year"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7588314951618415903)  2025-12-26T23:37Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"My brother is doing better and my mom is keeping the communication going 🎉 #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Motorcycle Accident Update Good News Motorcycle Accident Update Good News"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7589077644956667166)  2025-12-29T00:57Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Trying to understand my mother by looking back at her mother. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals My Moms Mom Part [--] My Moms Mom Part 1"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7589086571840818462)  2025-12-29T01:32Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Trying to understand my mom by remembering her mother. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7589088855794437407)  2025-12-29T01:40Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Trigger Warning: Child Abuse Blood Trigger Warning: Child"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7589809530200919326)  2025-12-31T00:17Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7589811364756180254)  2025-12-31T00:24Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Its alright to hurt. Find the balance. Accept the pain but dont accept that you deserved it. Brandon Sanderson Oathbringer #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590180050058743071)  2026-01-01T00:15Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Over [----] Followers Thank"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590185955496135967)  2026-01-01T00:38Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Dirty House Part [--] Dirty House Part 1"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590426630774983967)  2026-01-01T16:12Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Dirty House Part [--] Dirty House Part 2"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590432187871153439)  2026-01-01T16:33Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Dirty House Part [--] Dirty House Part 4"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590436418237893919)  2026-01-01T16:50Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590442964166429982)  2026-01-01T17:15Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Dirty House Part [--] Dirty House Part 6"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590446368997575967)  2026-01-01T17:28Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590446747818691870)  2026-01-01T17:30Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590453225803844895)  2026-01-01T17:55Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590457575955582239)  2026-01-01T18:12Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Dirty House Part [--] Filthy houses trigger me in a way I will never get over. Its unconscionable to raise children in a dirty house. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Dirty House Part [--] Dirty House Part 10"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590457599196171550)  2026-01-01T18:12Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Permission to Breathe Permission to Breathe"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7592083120300526879)  2026-01-06T03:20Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"I miss my little kitty but Im comforted knowing that he was very happy with me. We gave him a good life after the neglect and bitterness of his early years. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Finn Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy. July 2012"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593154947361901854)  2026-01-09T00:39Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593412673979600158)  2026-01-09T17:19Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593421841415277854)  2026-01-09T17:55Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593421860923002142)  2026-01-09T17:55Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593424877701451039)  2026-01-09T18:07Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7593424894025747743)  2026-01-09T18:07Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7594198118858525982)  2026-01-11T20:07Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Ivette Mormon Deconstruction Its not a one size fits all situation. Every deconstruction is different. Mine took over ten years. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7594636800925207839)  2026-01-13T00:29Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Healing Journey Part [--] Health and healing is not a linear path. I believe wholeheartedly that to truly heal you must find the source of the pain. I have recently made some staggering progress #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Healing Journey Update Part"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7595031267532344607)  2026-01-14T02:00Z [--] followers, [---] engagements


"120 Taking care of yourself family is more than giving them the bare minimum. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 120"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7595399556817227039)  2026-01-15T01:49Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Part [--] Fear God Not Man This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7584946063384055071)  2025-12-17T21:44Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586405115288964383)  2025-12-21T20:06Z [----] followers, 140K engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586411784660159774)  2025-12-21T20:32Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Christmas: Part [--] Christmas: Part 1"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7587188118067924254)  2025-12-23T22:45Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7594201306814860574)  2026-01-11T20:19Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Ivette #deconstruction #exmo#ExMo #ReligiousTrauma #FaithTransition #ExMormon #ReligiousTrauma"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7594225049213668639)  2026-01-11T21:52Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"118 Sadism comes in many forms. My Dad would call it schadenfreude but Ill call it by its true name. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 118"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7595353264493841694)  2026-01-14T22:50Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Jodi Stanley55 [---] Taking out the mental trash leaves room for self expression and growth. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 125"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7597497969180478751)  2026-01-20T17:32Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @user1601770819852 [---] Trauma bonds are complicated. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 126"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7597855968126422303)  2026-01-21T16:41Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Not THAT Karen [---] I can understand that my mom was in a bad situation without excusing her actions or lack of action. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 128"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7597865894999559454)  2026-01-21T17:20Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Rhea [---] The summer I was [--]. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 139"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600072958983343390)  2026-01-27T16:04Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"145 Part [--] Freshman year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Part [--] My freshman year [---] Part [--] My freshman year 145"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600114830166461726)  2026-01-27T18:47Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"154 Part [--] My Dad #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Part [--] My Dad [---] Part [--] My Dad 154"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600552965258235167)  2026-01-28T23:07Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"156 Part [--] My dad #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600568277986708767)  2026-01-29T00:06Z [--] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Sarah S [---] Autism runs in the family This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600824419560279326)  2026-01-29T16:41Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @cynthiaswann231 [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600835056915025182)  2026-01-29T17:22Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Ivette [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Response to"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600835085520162079)  2026-01-29T17:22Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @Kmhoth [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Response"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600835094261091614)  2026-01-29T17:22Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Melissa porter [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600836660116426014)  2026-01-29T17:28Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @always.looking [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals 163"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600836668391804191)  2026-01-29T17:28Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @IV [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600850177368411422)  2026-01-29T18:21Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"168 This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7601981272235265310)  2026-02-01T19:30Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Zarahemla [---] This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7602322408749468959)  2026-02-02T17:33Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"173 Part 3The summer I was [--] #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Slave Labor [---] Slave Labor 173"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7603056151567109406)  2026-02-04T17:01Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"175 Part [--] The summer I was [--] #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals More Slave Labor [---] More Slave Labor 175"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7603060880888171806)  2026-02-04T17:19Z [--] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @worktillhandsbleed #greenscreen Im a little more horrified than I was this morning. 😳😱🫣 #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7603191860336676127)  2026-02-05T01:47Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"182 Part [--] My Sophomore Year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] I accidentally starved my foster sister [---] I accidentally starved my foster sister"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7604562121602387230)  2026-02-08T18:25Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"190 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Losing My Brother Part [--] Trigger Warning: Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7606555130514640158)  2026-02-14T03:18Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"187 Part [--] My Sophomore Year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals A Whole New Ward [---] A Whole New Ward 187"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7605267110297685279)  2026-02-10T16:01Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Bernadette"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607570299504102686)  2026-02-16T20:58Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Madmnc"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607570605155667231)  2026-02-16T20:59Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590860109866159391)  2026-01-02T20:14Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Replying to @PaleRyder747 [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals 165"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600850177326468383)  2026-01-29T18:21Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"177 Part [--] The summer I was [--] #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] My Dad wanted to run away with me [---] My Dad wanted to run away with me"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7603166796992007454)  2026-02-05T00:10Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. Parentification is a common form of abuse in large families. Where there arent enough hands to care for everyone the older children are forced to pick up the slack. #ExMo #ExMormon"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7582667627844144415)  2025-12-11T18:23Z [----] followers, 94.3K engagements


"We have reached [----] followers Thank you for bringing my community. Your support means so much to me. Heres to healing over the holidays and new year. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7585601879997107487)  2025-12-19T16:09Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586415841864895774)  2025-12-21T20:48Z [----] followers, 13.9K engagements


"Replying to @Josh [---] Abuse is not binary. There is a spectrum of severely but its still abuse. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] 166"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7601226542487719198)  2026-01-30T18:41Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @MissTeak #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7604556696152739103)  2026-02-08T18:04Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"184 Part [--] My Sophomore Year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Head Lice 😱 [---] Head Lice 😱"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7604915626607414559)  2026-02-09T17:17Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"188 Part [--] My Sophomore Year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] A New Hope [---] A New Hope"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7605271163446611230)  2026-02-10T16:16Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"189 Part [--] My Sophomore Year #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Retired Stare Troopers Crown Vic [---] Retired Stare Troopers Crown Vic 189"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7605637111647128863)  2026-02-11T15:56Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"When I was six DFS was called on my family for the first time. I didnt understand the reportsthey never told mebut I understood the fear. I learned early how to hide the truth how to protect my parents how to coach my siblings to run if the police came. I learned to lie to keep us together. I learned to stop looking adults in the eye. This is the part of my healing: saying the things I was never allowed to say. Breaking the silence that kept me small. Im rewriting my story nowone piece at a time. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSD #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7582406951863127351)  2025-12-11T01:31Z [----] followers, 46.4K engagements


"200 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607127092181880094)  2026-02-15T16:18Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"157 Naked Dad Hugs. This was not a joke. It was not a silly little game. It made me feel like an object. It made me feel used. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Naked Dad Hugs [---] Naked Dad Hugs"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7600574117959585055)  2026-01-29T00:29Z [----] followers, 52K engagements


"Replying to @MissTeak"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607571814809619742)  2026-02-16T21:04Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7590860109866159391)  2026-01-02T20:14Z [----] followers, [----] engagements


"Part [--] Endure to the End This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. But I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7586405115288964383)  2025-12-21T20:06Z [----] followers, 140K engagements


"This is an excerpt from a series of essays Ive written. Its a therapeutic exercisean effort to process my complex trauma and leave it on the page relieving my body from the burden of carrying painful secrets for decades. Through writing I hope to heal. The anxiety depression CPTSD conversion disorder and OCPD may never fully leave me. I would rather share my story than keep secrets that protect my abusers. Parentification is a common form of abuse in large families. Where there arent enough hands to care for everyone the older children are forced to pick up the slack. #ExMo #ExMormon"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7582667627844144415)  2025-12-11T18:23Z [----] followers, 94.3K engagements


"Replying to @shannacalhoun5"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607589539187576095)  2026-02-16T22:13Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @shannacalhoun5 #greenscreen"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607573631094361374)  2026-02-16T21:11Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @MissTeak"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607571814809619742)  2026-02-16T21:04Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Madmnc"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607570605155667231)  2026-02-16T20:59Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Kmanuel1962gmail Com Manuel"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607570311982173470)  2026-02-16T20:58Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Bernadette"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607570299504102686)  2026-02-16T20:58Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @cjcolton415"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607568400755281183)  2026-02-16T20:51Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Mimi K"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607568401657056542)  2026-02-16T20:51Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"Replying to @Kmanuel1962gmail Com Manuel"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607568095267278110)  2026-02-16T20:49Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"200 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607127092181880094)  2026-02-15T16:18Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"199 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607126355230084382)  2026-02-15T16:15Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"198 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607123328846941470)  2026-02-15T16:04Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"197 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607116011300539679)  2026-02-15T15:35Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"196 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607114692141518110)  2026-02-15T15:30Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"195 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7607110162163256606)  2026-02-15T15:13Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"195 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7606778351784594718)  2026-02-14T17:45Z [----] followers, [---] engagements


"194 Part [--] Losing My Brother Grief at its heart is an expression of love. You cannot feel deep sorrow without first experiencing deep love. #ExMo #ExMormon #FaithTransition #ReligiousTrauma #CPTSDRecovery #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthJourney #WritingToHeal #Deconstruction #HealingIsPossible #SurvivorStrong #BreakTheSilence #TellYourStory #NoMoreSecrets #ReligiousAbuseAwareness #ComplexTrauma #OCPD #ConversionDisorder #AnxietyRecovery #DepressionRecovery #HopeAfterTrauma #LiveYourTruth #HealingInPublic #WritingHeals [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW Child Loss [---] Losing My Brother Part [--] TW"  
[TikTok Link](https://www.tiktok.com/@zarahemla0/video/7606777622701346079)  2026-02-14T17:42Z [----] followers, [---] engagements

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