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@mooncatvivi Avatar @mooncatvivi vivi

A person, possibly named vivi, is expressing deep emotional pain and struggle with depression, feelings of isolation, and low self-worth. They share their feelings of being a burden, having no real personality, and being stuck in a cycle of negative thoughts. Their posts convey a sense of desperation and frustration with their mental health.

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Social Influence

Social topic influence feel bad #10, lowkey #569, just a 3.92%, future 3.92%, what are 1.96%, friday night 1.96%, is there 1.96%, all in 1.96%, sober 1.96%, ab XXXX%

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"sometimes idk why i keep going bc nothing is enjoyable for me i dont see a point & every day is the same. just waiting & waiting & barely surviving in a perpetual state of apathy & discontentment no desire to live but continuing bc idk what else i can do. feeling like a ghost"
X Link 2025-11-29T23:34Z 24.3K followers, 81.6K engagements

"is life when you have a mental illness just a series of relapse recovery relapse recovery until you die. like do you just get better for a little until something triggers It & the cycle restarts & you Hope you heal Again. or dontjust over & over & over & over & Over forever"
X Link 2025-12-02T03:16Z 24.3K followers, 209.9K engagements

"leaving every social situation feeling like i did something wrong said all the wrong things and made everyone uncomfortable"
X Link 2025-09-23T03:42Z 24.3K followers, 3.1M engagements

"what are some good reasons to live for someone trying to get back into living"
X Link 2025-11-14T15:45Z 24.3K followers, 71.1K engagements

"isolating myself when i feel bad is like the equivalent of putting myself in adult timeout except its more shameful"
X Link 2025-12-04T17:42Z 24.3K followers, 68.9K engagements

"a walkable city and someone to go grocery shopping with"
X Link 2025-09-22T03:40Z 24.3K followers, 1.6M engagements

"feels like everyone around me is is planning for their future while every day i struggle with whether i deserve to be alive"
X Link 2025-11-16T06:35Z 24.3K followers, 234.4K engagements

"accidentally made a suicide joke in front of ppl whove never been suicidal before"
X Link 2025-10-15T02:54Z 24.3K followers, 8.1M engagements

"lowkey been going through life like a stray dog nobody wants"
X Link 2025-11-15T06:32Z 24.3K followers, 238.3K engagements

"not to sound Uhhh suicidal but being alive is like a job i never signed up for and i am very burnt out"
X Link 2025-11-19T21:59Z 24.3K followers, 361.5K engagements

"its crazy how being depressed for years makes you a fucking idiot"
X Link 2025-11-22T23:45Z 24.3K followers, 4.2M engagements

"i dont think i have what it takes to be human"
X Link 2025-11-26T00:30Z 24.3K followers, 147K engagements

"everyones gonna abandon me once they realize how fucked up and ruined i am and theyll hate me as much as i hate me. i will fix this by ghosting and avoiding and isolating and pushing them away and leaving first so no one can do that - super normal and well adjusted person"
X Link 2025-11-28T05:33Z 24.3K followers, 175.7K engagements

"just felt an arrow through my chest"
X Link 2025-12-01T16:36Z 24.3K followers, 1.6M engagements

"i have a super evil brain but my soul is pure if that means anything"
X Link 2025-12-03T17:18Z 24.3K followers, 103.9K engagements

"kinda fucked that i have to constantly be busy and distracted so my brain doesnt default to its factory settings of depression and suicidal ideation"
X Link 2025-12-04T06:39Z 24.3K followers, 629.5K engagements

"dont want to be here anymore feel so bad mind in shambles body feel bad me feel bad brain is bad badbadbad dont want to feel bad anymore"
X Link 2025-12-05T06:42Z 24.3K followers, 14.1K engagements

"just spent an hour picking myself apart and doing a deep dive on all my insecurities and wanting to call someone and then realizing i have no one anyway happy friday night i love being in my 20s using my one and only precious life to the max"
X Link 2025-12-06T04:36Z 24.3K followers, 9344 engagements

"ive lowkey dissociated most of this year and im ready to do it next year too"
X Link 2025-12-07T00:35Z 24.3K followers, 44.6K engagements

"setting boundaries with my mom and then feeling guilty and like a bad person for it. thinking of all the hurtful things she did when i was kid knowing she probably experienced it first & didnt know any better but also knowing i still needed a mom & i deserved better too"
X Link 2025-12-08T22:51Z 24.3K followers, 95.6K engagements

"i feel so pathetic and weak for being like this why cant i just get better why is everything so difficult for me why is existing such a chore why do i not enjoy anything anymore why cant i just get it together is there a cure for me is there hope for me is it over for me"
X Link 2025-12-09T01:01Z 24.3K followers, 213.4K engagements

"sometimes i wish something very bad would happen to me so id have a legitimate reason to feel bad thats not just the Depression and Mental Illness & that way its more Understandable why im off and unwell and its not just something in my head"
X Link 2025-12-13T10:39Z 24.3K followers, 99.8K engagements

"if only i could disappear as if i never existed to begin with that way i wouldnt hurt anyone no one would be bothered by me i wouldnt hurt anymore. just dont want to feel bad anymore just dont want to"
X Link 2025-12-13T11:24Z 24.3K followers, 29.3K engagements

"i always feel extra down & on edge around the holidays. seeing all the celebrations & happy families & socials makes me feel even more pathetic & resentful bc i am alone spiraling over stupid fears & consumed by my self hatred & so envious of the joy that seems to never reach me"
X Link 2025-11-27T21:44Z 24.2K followers, 13.3K engagements

"ok yea i know its all in my head but its also all very real to me"
X Link 2025-11-29T23:31Z 24.2K followers, 16.5K engagements

"(completely sober) is there hope for me if i have never seen a future for myself"
X Link 2025-12-05T04:47Z 24.2K followers, 39.6K engagements

"noo its ok when you have a setback those are normal and healing isnt linear and everyone has their ups and downs. when i have a set back i should kill myself"
X Link 2025-12-02T03:06Z 24.2K followers, 25.2K engagements

"what are some beginner thoughts for loving yourself when you genuinely dont think you are worthy of it"
X Link 2025-07-18T21:21Z 24.3K followers, 8.2M engagements

"hearing my coworkers talk about their plans together this weekend right in front of me and realizing nothing ab my life has changed since i was XX years old"
X Link 2025-11-07T20:54Z 24.3K followers, 3.2M engagements

"dont want ppl to notice im not doing well but also want ppl to notice im not doing so well but also dont want anyone to be burdened by me but also want to feel that ppl care about me but also dont want to be perceived but also want to feel like i matter"
X Link 2025-11-11T18:48Z 24.3K followers, 2.6M engagements

"ive genuinely been losing chunks of time i cant remember what ive been doing these days the last year feels like a hallucination i seem incapable of maintaining relationships and my memory is like a puzzle with constantly shifting missing pieces. all i know is i feel Bad"
X Link 2025-12-10T04:34Z 24.3K followers, 67K engagements

"nothing about me feels real and i dont remember most of my life"
X Link 2025-10-02T19:06Z 24.3K followers, 4.5M engagements

"self sabotaging but being aware of it"
X Link 2025-10-26T04:41Z 24.3K followers, 5.5M engagements

"every time i see someone my age or younger doing well i feel an intense flood of shame & jealousy overtake me like being submerged with boiling water bc Why cant i get my life together Why am i so messed up Why am i like this & i am trying so hard but Why them and not me"
X Link 2025-11-16T06:45Z 24.3K followers, 319.2K engagements

"i fear i am running out of time the days go by yet i make no progress i do not get better. & everyone is moving so fast & i feel im stuck in quicksand unable to get free just watching them all move on. & time keeps passing & i am still here & it does not stop & i am Still here"
X Link 2025-11-25T06:17Z 24.3K followers, 115.5K engagements

"no offense but i need to be put down"
X Link 2025-12-02T03:02Z 24.3K followers, 113.4K engagements

"i feel like ive been disordered for so long idk who i am & what i do without them. like when i think about my personality its likesad anxious nervous insecure & then what i DoUmmm well for the last decade its been self sabotaging & making lists & spiraling"
X Link 2025-12-02T20:15Z 24.3K followers, 18.3K engagements

"i lowkey think im going insane but no one can tell bc i act the same"
X Link 2025-12-02T20:18Z 24.3K followers, 38.4K engagements

"wow i cant believe they left after i made dozens of attempts to sabotage our relationship bc im scared of ppl abandoning me and dont believe i deserve to be loved and if i sabotage im technically in Control. what the hell"
X Link 2025-12-03T17:17Z 24.3K followers, 54.5K engagements

"feeling like a monster inhabiting a flesh prison everyone knows im a monstrous unlovable creature but they arent exactly sure why everyday i become less and less human but maybe i am just a creature masquerading as a person"
X Link 2025-12-09T20:02Z 24.3K followers, 14.8K engagements

"super fucked that ppl act like you Choose to have a mental illness & Blame you when u exhibit signs of said disorder & make it about themselves. like Noooooo im sorry you seeing me like This hurts youit hurts being me every second im me tooit also makes me want to kms /3 sry"
X Link 2025-12-13T11:30Z 24.3K followers, 34.5K engagements